Saturday, January 5, 2013

5, 4, 3, 2, 1...

Five short months from now, I will graduate from Loyalist College, as a Developmental Services Worker. Frankly, I can't believe that so much time has passed and that I have learned so much. I am happy. I am sad. I am hopeful. I am terrified.

Four short months from now, we will be putting our house on the market, preparing to move back to our home town. I am sad. I am hopeful. I am prayerful. I am terrified.

Three short months from now, I will be finishing up my 11-week second tour as one of "Quinte's Biggest Loser" a weight-loss/fundraiser organized by our local hospital. I am hopeful. I am terrified.

Two short months from now marks the 4th anniversary of my brother's passing, a day I begin dreading as soon as each new year begins. I am thoughtful. I am terrified.

One month from now I will be fully ensconced in my final placement - a group home for elderly folks with disabilities. I am hopeful. I am prayerful. I am terrified.

Mostly, for all of these things, I am grateful: for the hope, the prayerfulness...and the terror.

They let me know that I am exactly where I am supposed to be, in this, my 40th year.

The best is yet to be.

And you?
What are you looking forwarding to?
What scares you, these days?


  1. I'm terrified my book will flop. I'm terrified it will be a success.

    I am hopeful because I am loved and I love.

    1. Ah, yes. Ye ol' fear of success. So get it. You're gonna rock it, Leanne. The book will soar.

      Love and are loved. Yes, you do. Yes, you ARE.


  2. I am excited, hopeful and grateful for new beginnings. And I am terrified.

  3. Yep. I know where you are, my friend and it's a terrifying, hopeful place. You will shine. You always have. xo

  4. very well said, as always, Liz. You always seem to know exactly what to say and the best way to say it! I think maybe I need to do a posting similar to this for my blog.

  5. Do it, Jenn! You've got so much ahead of you this year - very excited to watch your life unfold before me! xo

  6. I have the most terrifying scare. But I'm not ready to talk about it yet. Because I might fail. We'll see. I promise to link back to you when/if I make it to the other side. This has been rough. But I'm glad I have the luxury of time to figure it out. Best of luck to you in your new adventure.

  7. What, what, what? Renee!! *Stomps foot* You'd BETTER link back here and share, missy. Time = good. I am intrigued. And hopeful...